A LIFE AFTER THIS

Ive been so blessed lately with a 2nd chance. I Know my Father in Heaven and My earthly Father are watching over me right now giving me that chance to make things right again. I have had so many things happen to me since the begining of the year. Ive had a whole new Life since Jan. Ive made so many mistakes in my past few years. A life I didnt want to live. Now I have a chance for a new life.."A LIFE AFTER THIS"

THE ONE
On Jan 2nd my life changed for good. After having problems in the past with girlfriends to a fiance. I finally met the girl of my dreams. So for about a year ive been talking to this girl over myspace and facebook. i kept trying to get her to hang out with me.. I was consistant and asked her everyday. Finally after a full year of begging her, she agreed to meet me. That night we met in the park. ( a mutual place) we sat there for hours and hours just talking about our lifes. well actually it was me talking for hours about how shitty my life had been in the past. after we hung out. I felt so stupid. I thought I scared her away talking about how i just broke up with a girl and was feeling sorry for myself. Guess I was wrong.... after she found out I loved to cook, She made me an apron. when she found out I was sick, she brought me soup and sprite. Since that day in Jan, We have not been apart except for when she went to Disneyland and I was in Spanish fork :) Now we are planning on getting married July 2 of this year. I have never been Happier in my life to marry such an amazing girl. One who stuck through all my talking about past relationships and crappy situations. A girl that treats me like a king and makes me feel so good about myself.. most of all, A girl that makes me a better person and want to do good in life.



MY EVERYTHING
So all last year I will admit I wasnt the best father in the world. I was a year behind in child support. I let my family do a lot of the watching of my kids during my weekend. But the more i see my kids grow up, the more ive realized I have already missed so much of their lives. My kids are getting so big. They talk, they run, they dance, Rykert goes to school, Lilly is a princess. Where have i been this past year??? I was chasing a dream instead of looking at the dream i already had infront of me. A dream I dont every want to awake from. MY KIDS!! They are my life now and My Everything. I get them Every other weekend. I pay childsupport. I buy them clothes, diapers, bug juice. I watch them all the time. I make sure they know I love them. Without them... I wouldnt be here. I would have made choices in my life that would have probably killed me. They are the reason I am here. They are the reason I believe in Love. They are the reason I want to be an amazing dad. They are the reason For my life! I want to be a better father, Soon to be husband. a better friend to their mom, A better person in general because of my kids. Ive taken for granit so much lately. The way they look at me is the look i will remember my whole life and a lot longer. Its the look of love. the look that will get me through the hard times and the tough days. it will get me through all my trials. just to know I can be their hero. a role model and someone they can look up to. I want to be that person. I will do my very best as a father to show them how much I care and need them in my life and hope they will need me in theirs.


ONE STEP AT A TIME
So lately a lot of people have been giving lacey and I crap for us getting married. Dont agree with us getting married. They have their opinion on us and dont agree with some of the things we are doing. I feel as long as Lacey and I are happy with our lives and Love each other. then It doesnt matter what other people think. Some people need to stop being so Jealous, and others need to grow up and realize we are happy. Dont bring us down cause maybe your not. Be happy for us. Be supportive of us cause you love us and want to see us Excell and be happy. Lacey and I have a thing where We go One step at a time. We live each day at a time. what ever we have thrown at us we take it and run with it. We defeat the odds. We conqure our trials. We do it Together. We do it as a team. We might not agree with things All of you do or people you might date... But we still Love you and support you cause we want you to be Happy! were all Equal. We are all brothers and sisters. We are only here for a short amount of time. We are here To help each other out. We are all Children of GOD!!!

AN EYE OPENER
On April 8th 2010 I had the biggest Eye opener of my life. I was arrested. I went to court for past due Child support. I agreed to something I couldnt do. Because of that, I was sentenced to a week in the Utah county jail. First time ever being arrested.... I was scared for my life. While in jail, I met so many different people who were there for so many different reasons. They were all scarey looking and crazy lol. I spent 20 hrs a day in a 2 man cell that was 5ft by 10ft. i stared at a blank wall for most of the time. counted bricks, and had a lot of time to think. Going to jail made me realize my responsibilities of being mature. On being an adult. If you say you will do something, DO IT!!! But most of all it taught me to be a better father.

A WEEKEND AWAY
So this past weekend, Lacey the kids and I went to St George to visit Laceys dad and his wife Tara. It was one of the best vacations I have ever had. Not only did we get away from drama here in Utah county. But we were welcomed into their home with open hearts, opened minds, and LOVE. They showed us a whole new side of life. They took us to the lake so the kids could go swimming. They brought the Four wheelers so i can go on a four wheeler for the first time ever. we had a fire there and Roasted Hot dogs. The kids had so much fun!! Rykert loved Riding in the Razer. he was going crazy! I think he loved Sammi (the moster truck) aka the jeep the most out of everything. Lilly loved playing with the girls, and I know the girls loved playing with her. My favorite part about the lake was when rykert and lilly called the wet sad poopies cause it looked like wet poop to them. Rykert kept telling everyone he had poopies in his ears. Cutest thing ever!!!! I think why I enjoyed the trip the most was having the oportunity to talk with Joe, laceys dad. We had a heart to heart talk about life. What i needed to do to be a better dad, husband, ex, and friend. Pretty much how i can be a better person. Him and Tara has helped me so much this past week in so many ways. I am so thankful for them and their kind hearts in doing so. It feels good to know I have a father figure again in my life here on earth. someone i can go to and ask questions. But still know my DAD is watching over me and loving me so much. I am so grateful to have lacey in my life and to have a fun little vacation with her and our little family. To spend the time we needed with each other and away from all the drama.