Every year on July 1st, My family will go visit my dads grave. This year was really hard for me. It was the day before my wedding. I sure wish my dad could have been there physically. But i know he was there in my heart. I was so glad that Lacey got to come with me and my family to the grave site.. Not only did we see my dads, but i got the opportunity to see her sister whitneys grave. Crazy how i could feel the spirit there together.
night we met in the park. ( a mutual place) we sat there for hours and hours just talking about our lifes. well actually it was me talking for hours about how shitty my life had been in the past. after we hung out. I felt so stupid. I thought I scared her away talking about how i just broke up with a girl and was feeling sorry for myself. Guess I was wrong.... after she found out I loved to cook, She made me an apron. when she found out I was sick, she brought me soup and sprite. Since that day in Jan, We have not been apart except for when she went to Disneyland and I was in Spanish fork :) Now we are planning on getting married July 2 of this year. I have never been Happier in my life to marry such an amazing girl. One who stuck through all my talking about past relationships and crappy situations. A girl that treats me like a king and makes me feel so good about myself.. most of all, A girl that makes me a better person and want to do good in life.
so big. They talk, they run, they dance, Rykert goes to school, Lilly is a princess. Where have i been this past year??? I was chasing a dream instead of looking at the dream i already had infront of me. A dream I dont every want to awake from. MY KIDS!! They are my life now and My Everything. I get them Every other weekend. I pay childsupport. I buy them clothes, diapers, bug juice. I watch them all the time. I make sure they know I love them. Without them... I wouldnt be here. I would have made choices in my life that would have probably killed me. They are the reason I am here. They are the reason I believe in Love. They are the reason I want to be an amazing dad. They are the reason For my life! I want to be a better father, Soon to be husband. a better friend to their mom, A better person in general because of my kids. Ive taken for granit so much lately. The way they look at me is the look i will remember my whole life and a lot longer. Its the look of love. the look that will get me through the hard times and the tough days. it will get me through all my trials. just to know I can be their hero. a role model and someone they can look up to. I want to be that person. I will do my very best as a father to show them how much I care and need them in my life and hope they will need me in theirs.
t to court for past due Child support. I agreed to something I couldnt do. Because of that, I was sentenced to a week in the Utah county jail. First time ever being arrested.... I was scared for my life. While in jail, I met so many different people who were there for so many different reasons. They were all scarey looking and crazy lol. I spent 20 hrs a day in a 2 man cell that was 5ft by 10ft. i stared at a blank wall for most of the time. counted bricks, and had a lot of time to think. Going to jail made me realize my responsibilities of being mature. On being an adult. If you say you will do something, DO IT!!! But most of all it taught me to be a better father. 
